Christmas is...

...full of hope :) I can feel it!

Ha, the spirit is makin me feel lifted. And the snow is so pretty.

One can only hope...

Uncertainty

...I hate not knowing.

Especially this time of year. It's starting to get to me, the uncertainty. I don't know whether to worry and wonder or just to let it all slide, like the busyness of it all is.. a great excuse not to....

And there are some things about this time of year that I have never had the chance to experience that a lot of people have...

:(

Guess I'm overreacting, but... I guess I'm just a sucker..

"It's f***in' COLD!!"

Lol.. this is all I heard today, from various, uh, men. I mean, everyone had something to say about the suddenly atrocious Ohio weather (what else is new?) but I feel like everytime I heard a guy say it, it was "It's f***in' COLD!" Bahaha...

Crazy Ohio.

Let's just hope this uncertain frigid cold wind doesn't stay - and I may not just be talking about the weather :-/

Revisiting Some Old Songs :)

The next 2 entries are some really awesome songs. I totally forgot about these albums cause I no  longer have them.. but am so glad I've remembered since :)

♥

New Music!

So I've been rediscovering the band Circa Survive lately, and also discovering Brand New, which is like my fave band (besides The Beatles, of course) Taking Back Sunday. Here is a video from 2007 by Circa that I immediately fell in love with. It's a pretty gross video for my tastes haha, but the song itself is awesome..



Anywho, yeah. I was hoping to insert the original video for more of a visual but I guess Blogspot is retarted. Here's another:



Anyway, c'est tout for now. Back to les devoirs.


~C

My Luck with Drawings!! :)

This is from my fb today: 

"omg I'm in the finals for winning that BMW at the mall.. but I lied about my income.. but! I won a cruise and am gonna have someone that makes enough refer me for it, so at least THAT should work!.. :) ha a cruise is better than nothing! But sad about the car cause I don't think you can have a referral for THAT.. lol.. I need this car ha, I can barely afford to save for a crappy car!.."

SO.. yeah. I couldn't believe that I got a call but then again.. I lied about my income BECAUSE I READ THE FINE PRINT on the back of the card! Haha.. figures I can't win the car of my dreams when I ACTUALLY  GET THE CHANCE TO! Lol, wow.. I mean, it only means I'm in the finals for winning it, not that I actually won it, but maybe there's a chance that if I did win, someone else could take it who actually makes enough, then give it to me? Yeah, right!! Winning that iPod touch was enough luck for a while, I bet. Unless God has a hand in these things, which I believe he does. I just think that, being poor and barely making enough to save for a crappy car (I'm planning on working 2 part-times this summer), I should win this thing! GARRR!!

Anyway, ______ has to go to this seminar thing tomorrow or Sat. and sit through this travel company (who sponsored the car giveaway)'s spiel about their services. THEN he/we can win the cruise. I'm really hoping he is willing to do this, since he said he has done something like this before, and DIDN'T win. Eek!!! Please please please.. haha.. I really think this is legit! I am pretty sure she said you don't have to buy anything.. no catches.. I hope...

Ugh! Anxious! Chance of a lifetime! Haha..
(coughIhopecough)

Things Guys Say Or Mean... and Girls Don't

Guyspeak / Girlspeak

1. "buddies" = "friends"

2. "pass out" = "sleep"

3. "chill" = "hang out"

(... to

be

continued ... )

Other translations:

• "I'll call you." - no he won't. Especially if he didn't even get your number (!)
•  

To be continued...

Nails Again -n- Schtuff

So I decided to do my nails again, after taking a break from them for about a month. I also edited this in Picnik. Why? Because I can't help it!! Haha.

Yum.
Sure, they're a hassle. And it's hell trying to text. So why do I do it? Cause it looks good, hehe! I know, girls are dumb.. but eh, what are ya gonna do?

Oh, update on the girl at work: well, when I next worked with her, she wasn't nearly as bad. Still, not friendly. I don't get it - how can some people just NOT be friendly, or smile? I mean, I'm shy but I still have a pleasant tone of voice when speaking with others, and I most certainly don't give them mean, nasty looks. Oh, and when she is somewhat nice? It's when an adult says goodbye, have a nice day!! She's all, "Byee, you too!" -_- Wtf, haha.

Now I'm off to study French. I'm pissed that we have so much due this week. Why can't these things be spaced out??

~Cara

Wow. I've never been so insulted..

So I've been really upset for half of the day because of the girl I work with. I can't believe how rude and demeaning she is, and it's just gotten worse.

I'm not one to be dramatic or exaggerate, and I try to tell it like it is. So I am honest when I say she was really mean - showing an attitude and looking at me all day like I was flat-out stupid. Seriously. I don't even feel like going into details.. but I was really quite upset. She just would not let up. Every job I did, she had a mean comment. I guess she thinks I'm lazy or something but I am far from it, at least when it comes to the job I have to do. I try to do the best I can, in the time allowed (I have to leave early Mondays for class). I just felt so degraded and patronized. Ugh.. guess I'm gonna have to be strong and say something - nicely, of course. I couldn't be any other way. ;-)

Discouraged.

More later, but a quick post - I am feeling very discouraged all of a sudden. In love. I always have, ever since high school, because none of the guys I liked (and TOLD them I liked, at that!) ever liked me back. Then I come to college, find a bf, discover online that I'm quite a catch, blah blah.. but still, here I am. Unlucky. Or rather, unblessed by God to have found that person..

What is wrong with me that guys don't approach me, or that I'm too shy? Should I change my whole personality just to abate this?! Like, wtf.. and yeah, it doesn't help that exes have told me to be more outgoing.. don't fucking try to change me :( Anyway!

Also I am soooo picky. It's unreal. Are most smart, "attractive" (I don't really think I am) girls this picky?! I worry a lot about it but also, I would like to think I'm WORTH being that picky!.. aka don't settle, blah blah.. 

G2g.. more later..

From My English Assignment...

So we have a blogging assignment in English class. (Yes, I am still in an English class at 22.. Long story.) Here is what I wrote for my "mid-process post" --

I really enjoy the blogging assignment. I started journaling as a kid, and I’ve blogged before so this is nothing new to me; however, certain aspects are new. For example, having to blog almost every day in order to fill the “quota” assigned is a little daunting, but I do enjoy it so far. Also new is trying to stick to one topic. Before and even now, I would blog about things going on in my life, as well as my chosen “class assignment topic” of fashion, but this time it is an assignment, and there is a topic at hand that is to be (loosely) adhered to. Sometimes I find myself just Googling whatever comes to mind in order to keep the blog somewhat fresh and interesting. I think one challenge of this assignment is letting go and giving my opinions. I am so used to having to back up what I say for assignments with facts that I have to remember that this isn’t that kind of assignment. I enjoy putting in links, videos, and pictures, and I will try to remember to say more in the future and not just summarize the topic or link at hand.

Right now I'm trying to cover most general bases of fashion-related topics, from men's and women's all the way to teens and interesting articles or videos I've found. I think the way teens and young adults dress is interesting because it begs the question, why do they do it? I'm also interested in controversies in fashion, for example, all the lawsuits that Abercrombie and Fitch have had filed against them.

Maybe a narrowing of topic will form eventually... I look forward to finding out.

Interesting Observations

I have noticed over the years that if you go into a bar with a man, you don't get carded, whereas if you're by yourself or with friends, you probably will.

In classes, the pretty outgoing girls get tend to get more (visible or verbal) notice than ones like me.

In Shriver, the low fat vanilla frozen yogurt tastes just like ice cream. I bet it is...

I've always been a teacher's pet. Hmm..

You can actually get used to not drinking pop :)

Food cooled by an open window seems to cool twice as fast.


To be continued... 

Well, hello. 'Tis been awhile.

Hallo. Not that anyone reads this, but hi, and it's been awhile.

Last we heard, I was chasing around some dudes. Well, nothing came of that of course, so it's on to new dudes and stuff. xD

In Miami now, yay. Didn't make it into music dept, not-yay. So I'm biding time here (coughfinallygettingtopartycough) before I transfer again somewhere else. There's this one place who takes anyone for music.. sounds lame like I have no talent, but I do lol. Just had a hard time. Made a new gay friend (what else is new?!) and although we have fun, I think he likes to party a little too much, haha. I mean, I"ve gotten sick because of it.. guess I've worn down my poor immune system...

Making blogs in English class :) How sweet is that. I'm doing a fashion one for guys AND gals so hopefully the guys will take a looksee. I'm planning to incorporate teen fashion, pressure, etc. into the thing, along with haute couture musings :) Hopefully people will read it (besides the prof haha)!

View English blog here :)

More later :)

-C

Review: Colossal Volum' Express® Mascara

Review: Colossal Volum' Express® Mascara

So. I bought this at the dollar store instead of the "Falsies" one that I was thinking about getting - they didn't have it. Anyway, I saw that this one is like, the forebearer or what have you, so I thought it'd be good.

I wanted to try a non-two-step type, to see if the results were just as good. The packaging said it had "9x the volume," supposedly meaning the volume of your natural, normal lashes. 

It did pretty well (pics below), but I had to put on three stinkin' coats, lol. Few clumps, just like it says. It did seem to make my lashes a tad longer than the previous kind I have been wearing for years - the XXL by Maybelline. I was beginning to think Maybelline was letting me down, haha.. and that it was time to move on. I don't know for sure if my lashes are long, short, thin, or thick, but I know that they're nothing to write home about, haha. I love as much lash as I can get, when I'm in the mood. So.. so far, I think this is a decent mascara, but I would still love to try the $20 and up kind - designer lashes, if you will :) Especially DiorShow. Thoughts?

~C 

"The Evening Hangs Beneath the Moon..."

..a silver thread on darkened dune.

Why and how does this happen? Why does such hollowing heartache happen to such good, loving, well-meaning people? How can a best friend become such an estranged, sickened enemy? Why does this happen, and how to prevent it, if at all?? Why me, where did it..?

I never meant to, honest. I never thought this would happen.. but it did. And I am glad to be free yet am holding back because.. because of, "I cry myself to sleep at night.." And I am terribly saddened at having caused this pain yet am ready to.. ready to..

Tomorrow, I'll be ready.. for someone is expecting me to be. And I smile slightly at this one sane thought.

"Gonna get ready, already ready.. All I wanted was a little bit of time for me to clear my head, gonna get ready." 

---------------

The evening hangs beneath the moon
A silver thread on darkened dune
With closing eyes and resting head
I know that sleep is coming soon

Upon my pillow, safe in bed
A thousand pictures fill my head
I cannot sleep my minds a flight
And yet my limbs seem made of lead

If there are noises in the night
A frighting shadow, flickering light
Then I surrender unto sleep

Where clouds of dreams give second sight

What dreams may come both dark and deep

Of flying wings and soaring leap

As I surrender unto sleep
As I surrender unto sleep

At Work..

Hallo. Am at work. I was busy answering questions on Yahoo! Answers, lol. See, I kind of have an addictive personality, especially when it comes to anything that involves points. Like this app I am trying that is free, it's called MyTown. Lol. Or getting hooked on a game. Or finding a new brand of clothes that I like. Idk what it is about me.. lol, but I know I'm not alone. Anyway.

Possible date Wednesday. And this weekend. Uck.. I am too addicated to online dating. Makes me worried. Again, a perfect example of my addictive personality. Ugh. I am on like, 3 or 4 (free) sites and I am headed off to school soon (IF all goes well), so there's a chance that I might meet someone anyway, but sill, I pursue these things.. meh. I don't know. But then again, I don't see how I could meet anyone at school - I never have before. I did go to a small, boring school, though.. Both in high school and college. So maybe this will work out? I hope so.. Lord knows I need someone who is within my proximity! All I have had so far are what they call LDR's - long distance relationships. And when you don't drive, that makes it a little bit harder, at least. So meeting someone at school would be a blessing x1,029,385,764 lol! Perhaps. But I just always leave it to God.. makes life lots easier. And also, the ladies at church.. ya never know I guess. -_- Anyway, I don't know how well this Weds. thing will go.. at least he is into music. Has a degree, but not in music. Still, he works with it every day so.. eh. We'll see. More later. [Please subscribe!!]

~C

Fake Nails 'n Schtuff

Yay! So I did my nails today, got the package in the mail from eBay. Soo excited, haha. 2 French mani sets for LESS than the price of one in the drugstore! Ha. $15. Hope it lasts. The person (from Cali) mailed it though in just a simple cardboard envelope.. lame. Acrylic powder on everything, but it wasn't so bad. Oh, I need to leave feedback. But yeah.. looks good. Although it is remarkably similar to what I could do on my own in a fraction of the time with just nail polish, haha.. yes, I have perfect that art! But this should last longer than polish, obviously. The way it comes off in the shower, yuck. So icky, lol. But anyway. I did my homework and looked at little tutorials on YouTube and the internet.. so that helped. Here is the finished product - unfortunately, I forgot that my camera was down here (and not upstairs) so I didn't grab it during the process to take pics like my friend recommended :-/ Here you go:

Yayness.

It wasn't too hard at all, but it took me all freakin' day! I feel like I wasted today, AND I got up at 9:00! Boo. Sad me.. lol. Anyway. I also sang at church, was fine. But I guess I shouldn't have worn that skirt but it wasn't that long! The hem was let out too. Boo on you guys. Haha. The ladies want to matchmake, lol.. we'll see how that goes! A nice Catholic boy, lol. Only thing is, I'm super picky with looks. I think, lol.

Funny Stuff...

Haha. I love Failblog.org. This is the kind of stuff one could spend hours looking at. Oh, the joys of the world wide web.. haha. Here are some things I found today that I thought were worth sharing!!

Late Night and a Romanian

Haha.. so I've been doing this pen pal thing for a while now. Just about all summer. It's neat, and going fine. So I'm on this website (highly recommended, btw) called http://www.penpalworld.com/ . I was just looking around, and for the first time, I was looking for male friends. I mean, not that I'm looking for anyone special, I just thought that since I'm single now, I can do such things, haha. Weird, I know. Anyway! I added a few friends, people I thought "worthy" to talk to, and I got a few replies. One of them stood out, and we quickly emailed back and forth. Long emails, details, very pleasant :) Witty. He was born in Romania and moved here as a kid. Jeez.. deja vu much for me? Lol, don't ask. He says ppl from there typically are fair, but he isn't.. and I like it!

So then I had this idea of, hey, his email address is Yahoo, so maaybe he is on messenger. I typed in his name to add, and sure enough, there he was! Haha. But he was dealing wth some stuff at work (hospital) so we didn't talk for a few minutes. But once we did, we didn't stop til like, 1 in the morning! Haha. Crazy.. I guess we had a lot to talk about. Of course, one of those subjects is like, a common area of human interest, and I won't mention it :) But we have a lot in common intellectually, of course. I love when things flow with someone intellectually, and you don't have to force it. Or worry about their smarts. Love it, ha. He says if I ever came to Chicago (yes, it is far unfortunately but not impossible.. so I don't know that we will ever  meet, especially since I don't drive!) we would have a whole day dedicated to food :)  That would be very cool, having all kinds of ethnic foods.. it was funny, he said if I ever showed up at his door with rasmala, he would marry me. Lol.

He has also said that people sometimes think he's gay. Ha! - sounds like my previous boyfriends. I like guys that dress well, what can I say? I'm picky in many ways, lol.

So.. that's that for now. I was supposed to go on a date today with someone else but he's sick :( Dunno..

Ciao!

The Art of Faux Nails

So I've been  toying around with the idea of acrylic nails for a few days now. (Once I get an idea in my head, I become obsessed with it!!) And I thought I might give it a whirl before school starts - I would have to have pretty short nails to play the stupid (I repeat, STUPID) piano.. so I never messed with fake nails after middle/high school. But it's killing me now; I really want to have pretty nails - that last. I'm also reading reviews... This one looks ok:

Walgreens -- Kiss Complete Kit   

I'm really looking for a kit that has primer in it, because the cheapest kits at the drug store don't have it. I have done lots of homework and found that you need a few essential things to keep acrylics that last. Here's a starter list (from that site):

• Nail Tips (French, Natural, etc.)
• Acrylic Liquid  / Monomer
• Acrylic Powder 
• Acrylic Primer (note: I didn't use this bc I didn't have it)
• Dehydrator (didn't use this)
• Sanitizer
• Nail Glue
• Acrylic Brush
• Buff Block (4-way)
• Dappen (Nail) Dish
• 2-Way Nail File
• Manicure Stick (cuticles)
• (Optional) Apple Fresh Acrylic Liquid Masking Formula .07oz - just a few drops masks the potent odor of Acrylic Liquid

 
More later..

Mascara, Anyone? And Eyeliner

I was thinking about buying a new one. Also eyeliner.. I'm out. I like the twist-up kind, smudger optional. (I never use it; finger works just fine).

Advice would be great!

Sites I found:

http://allwomenstalk.com/best-mascara/

http://www.makeupalley.com/product/showreview.asp/ItemId=128063/The_Falsies/Maybelline/Mascara

Cara's NEW Blog!

Hey guys,

This is my new blog - in name only, because I got sick of, when I logged into the "old" one, it would sign me out of my "new" email. New email = new blog. Sorry for the confusion. Hang in there!

~C

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