Discouraged.

More later, but a quick post - I am feeling very discouraged all of a sudden. In love. I always have, ever since high school, because none of the guys I liked (and TOLD them I liked, at that!) ever liked me back. Then I come to college, find a bf, discover online that I'm quite a catch, blah blah.. but still, here I am. Unlucky. Or rather, unblessed by God to have found that person..

What is wrong with me that guys don't approach me, or that I'm too shy? Should I change my whole personality just to abate this?! Like, wtf.. and yeah, it doesn't help that exes have told me to be more outgoing.. don't fucking try to change me :( Anyway!

Also I am soooo picky. It's unreal. Are most smart, "attractive" (I don't really think I am) girls this picky?! I worry a lot about it but also, I would like to think I'm WORTH being that picky!.. aka don't settle, blah blah.. 

G2g.. more later..